This summer was a good one. It was somewhat laced with anxiety but I never felt overly anxious because I live for a savior who is in the business of setting all things right. I didn't feel anxious because I trusted his plan for me. I was so desperate to hear and do whatever it is God wants me to do. I couldn't get enough, I couldn't read enough, I was content just being in his presence. I think in the midst of walking through this daily life I finally knew and accepted my place. By that I mean, I knew that it's not about me. It's not about how I feel, what I want to do, or what other people are thinking. I knew my place as a woman created in the image of God to be in relationship with God for the purpose of making God known.
As a sit here writing this, I wonder why I can know my place one day, and wake up the next day back in the same ole grind of "going through the motions". I'll tell you one thing though, even on ordinary days we can be confident of our place in Christ and his love for us. So everyday, whether good or bad, let us agree with the psalmist...
" I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living." Psalm 27:13
Monday, August 13, 2012
I had to blog this because I want to remember it forever. :) Yesterday at lunch Ansley and I were talking about all kinds of stuff because I was gone over the weekend and we hadn't talked in a while. Then she told me, "Mom, I know I love animals but I think I decided I want to be someone who teaches other people how to read about Jesus. Then when I go talk to them everywhere they will have all kinds of new animals for me to see. So I can tell people about Jesus and see lots of animals." My response was, "That is a great idea"! My heart was full. I get nervous sometimes that walking with Jesus is just a family thing to her (which is somewhat good). However, I don't want her to skip over the personal relationship God wants to have with her just because "church" is kind of our way of life since Jay is a youth minister. I was just encouraged that she seems to be getting it a little. I know God has good plans for her future and I am trusting him to move in her heart at just the right time.